I haven't been very open about the actuality of my struggles with my diet, but I feel the need to be honest and open now. I need to be honest so as to overcome it.
I started a counter at midnight. It's 2:35am now. After several days of not following my no sugar diet, I started the countdown today to make every moment count. Even though my last post I said was the beginning of my quitting sugar, I didn't accomplish it yet, but I am beginning again.
The past few days have been ugly. I have eaten whole packs of cookies, whole packs of doughnuts, made trips to the store just to get something sweet to eat. Last night was especially bad. I hopped from store to store buying junk food. I buy it and have to eat it immediately and completely. I am a compulsive overeater, addicted to sugar.
It doesn't even taste that good anymore. Sometimes even when it doesn't taste good I still eat it. Last night I at least threw away one thing that tasted especially bad.
I am just at the breaking point. I don't want to keep on like this.
I have been free of sugar for 3 hours 3 minutes and 5 seconds and counting.
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